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Post by resident2k4 on Apr 27, 2009 0:15:35 GMT -5
Carlisle was at the office again, as he walked over to the room Esme was once in, he hadn't seen her back in awhile, so he was assuming she was doing just fine, but he sighed and kept thinking back to the time they spent together and the feelings he had for her. Carlisle sighed some as he went back to filling out patient charts, as he knew he still had a job to do and not to let his feelings or attachments distract him from doing his job.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Apr 27, 2009 0:43:43 GMT -5
Die I just want to die just like my baby did my perfect little baby. Soon after he son was born Esme left her husband fearing for her newborns life, she and her child, were doing fine until he died unexpectedly. Esme was distraught she blamed herself for his death because she had not clue how why he passed away in his sleep. Depress and feeling like she had nothing left in her life she walked to the edge of a cliff and jumped cradling he baby's lifeless body her arms. She closed her eyes and waited for the end but it did not come.
why? why didn't I die? she though as he body was wheeled into the hospital. he eyes were open and she could not speak ut she could still hear, she only new she was alive because could still hear her heart beating erratically and faintly. As she was rolled thought the hospital she could see that it is not a normal hospital room she was entering but the morgue . She could smell death all around and he knew that who ever found he must have thought she was dead .
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Post by resident2k4 on Apr 28, 2009 21:48:28 GMT -5
Carlisle was gliding down the hall as it was close to quiting time, he was finishing up his patient chart with usual record time. He then flipped them shut and went to his office, putting everything back in order before leaving. He then found himself thinking about Esme, unable to forget her and knowing he never could. He smiled in imagining how wonderful of a mother she was being to her child. He walked out and decided to take a different route as he was leaving the hospital.
He then felt something, so faint, that no one else could hear it. It was a sense he gained as a vampire, he had to find it and so he decided to glide down the hallways and found himself at the entrance of the morgue area. He slowly opened the door and starting looking around and continue to search for the faint life line and then came to a vision that horrified him. It was his once fallen angel, it was Esme, she was a wreck from the plunge she took. He quickly sank down to her, with so much pain in his face and eyes, if he could cry he would, but only continued to wince in so much pain. He cried out to her as he cupped her face "Esme, Esme, look at me, what happened? Please stay with me, don't die. Can you hear me Esme?"
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Post by Esme Cullen on Apr 28, 2009 23:18:18 GMT -5
Esme, eyes looked at Carlisle but he looked at sounded so distant from her. She could focus on his face, she could barely even focus to breathe.She rolled her eyes catching Carlisle for a moment and she tried to speak at a normal tone but it came out as almost not even a whisper. "my....baby...I....he.....is....I want...to.... Esme eyes closed and a tear ran down the side of her face. She was upset he child was dead and she had noting left she wanted her heart to stop beating, she wanted to stop breathing and see nothing but darkness.
"why....should ...I...live...I have...nothing......to .....live....for...."[/b]
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Post by resident2k4 on Apr 29, 2009 20:20:22 GMT -5
Carlisle closed his eyes tightly and winced in pain and slowly stroked Esme's face, as he then pulled out his kit that he keeps close to him and started to clean her wounds. He then ran his hands over the sore spots with his cold hands to help bring some relief to her at least from the physical pain. He continued to bandage her wounds, not knowing how long she had to live. He was going to lose his angel as she had fallen again.
He knew there was nothing he could say or do for her, but he wasn't going to let her stay there. He would take her home with him where he would keep her under his care for as long as she could hold on for. He didn't know how long, but he would try and cherish his time with her and give her a positive send off if she could no longer hold on from being heart broken from losing her son who she loved so dearly with all her heart.
"Esme, I am....I am so sorry, there is nothing I can say or do to make that pain go away. I don't know what I can do other than continue to treat your wounds. But I am gonna leave you here, I am taking you with me to my place, you can rest and heal as best as you can." With that Carlisle gently picked her up and cradled her in his arms as he did with the greatest of ease, as a vampire he had superior strength to humans and even animals five times his size, he wrapped her up and glided down the hallways and snuck her out to his car where he gently laid her in the back seat, placing a few pillows and with that got in his car and pulled away to his place not knowing how long much life force was left in Esme.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Apr 29, 2009 20:54:24 GMT -5
Tears continued to fall from Esme's face, the pain in her body was in was in no comparison to the pain in her heart. As Carlisle picked her up he wanted to tell him to leave here there and let her pass on . She could barley speak and she could not get the words out of her mouth she just began to say something he placed her in the car. She began to breath heavier as she wanted to just let go and die like she was attempting to do. I.... just....want.....my...... baby she cried so quietly to herself she did not know why Carlisle wanted to save her except he had a kind heart and he was a doctor, it was a doctor's job to save a patients life.
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Post by resident2k4 on Apr 29, 2009 21:20:31 GMT -5
Carlisle, knew she wanted to die as only he could hear with his senses as to what she was saying. He pulled up to his house and climbed out and grabbed Esme and carried her into the house. He would then proceed to wash her wounds to try and make her more comfortable. He did it with such expert precision and made it go by real fast. He would even dress her as well in something comfortable, as he then carried her to his bed and layed her in it.
Carlisle would then let her rest some. He pulled the covers over her as he then left and made sure she had food and drink as he set out to find her child, he looked back at her and sighed some, he didn't know if she hated him for it, for not listening to her, but he couldn't just leave her at the morgue, it hurt Carlisle too much to do that, and with that he left.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Apr 29, 2009 21:49:24 GMT -5
Esme Just let Carlisle tends to her and she did not object, she knew she was going to die in the end she could feel it coming, slowly but it was she knew she injured many of her vital organs and it was a matter of time before they would begin to shut down, Carlisle must have know it was happening to because cleaned her up and dressed her in something different then her blood stained clothes. She then was placed into the bed but she felt like she could barely keep conscious anymore and closed her eyes, the last thing she saw was Carlisle exiting through the door then she fell asleep. As she slept she could see the face of her little baby boy looking up at her. "Carlisle... my son.....Carlisle" she then woke up caughing spitting up some blood when she did.
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Post by resident2k4 on Apr 30, 2009 20:58:11 GMT -5
Carlisle would pull alongside the road of where Esme attempted to kill herself by jumping off the cliff side. He would venture further into the woods looking as he thought if she was going to die, she should have her son in her arms to have one last moment with him, he then kept searching as his nose caught scent of the child. He came up to find her son, as animals were nearby but scared of Carlisle, sensing he was something else other than human ran off. Carlisle slowly walked over and picked up the child, still wrapped and looked to be at peace, it pained his heart as to why this happened, and it hurt him more that it had to happen to such a wonderful woman in Esme.
He then turned around and headed back to his car as he glided towards it and climbed in placing the child in the passengers seat and drove back home. He arrived shortly, as he heard Esme coughing, he gently placed the child on a spare couch and got more towels to provide a bed like setting for him. He then came in and saw Esme caughing up blood, he rushed to her and cleaned her mouth with a rag and then reached for his kit and slowly started to get some remedies and i.v.'s to help assist with the pain, he worked fast and dilegently as he had items he brought from the hospital and then slowly inserted the needle into her arm and sat next to her and continued to stay by her side.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Apr 30, 2009 21:32:00 GMT -5
As Carlisle returned And began working on her failing body Esme did not know why he was attempting to save he like he was. "Why?"she said as sat next to her after putting the i.v. into her vein. "Why are you trying you save me, I wanted to die, I am all alone in this world. I brokenhearted and I don't want to go on my baby is dead, and I don't want to live any longer. My body is failing me, I am glad about that. Carlisle..." Esme spoke to him quietly unable to speak more then whisper. She coughed again and this time had trouble gaining her breath and her chest felt heavy. "...don't you see, I am to badly hurt, you cant save me"
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Post by resident2k4 on Apr 30, 2009 21:43:47 GMT -5
Carlisle bowed his head some nodding at that. He was losing his angel, she would soon be departing, still Carlisle continued to work making a ventilator for as well to help her breathe some, running his cold hands over her wounds. He wanted to make her death as painless as possible. He knew she was going through so much and the loss of her son would not help things either. He knew if he could, he would cry, he loved her so much. "Just try and hang on for a little bit longer Esme, I just wanted to give you one last thing before.....you....depart from this world and from me and to do this in thanks for your kindess and wonderful heart."
With that Carlisle gave her some pain killers as well to help numb the pain some as he left the room and took the child to his bathroom and began to clean the child. He took great care of him and showed respect even in death and smiled in pain as the child was so beautiful and knew why it hurt Esme so much to lose him. Carlisle would have gladly taken his place for them to be together again. He then clothed the baby and wrapped him as he was just delivered, he then slowly came into the room and looked at Esme, cradling her child in his arms.
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Post by Esme Cullen on Apr 30, 2009 22:22:04 GMT -5
Esme looked at Carlisle as he walked toward her holding the body of an infant in his arms. "No...." she said and began to weep more. why, why did you do this Carlisle.... Esme did not know if see him hold her dead child's body in his arms made her feel better or worse. It made her think about the time back at the hospital when she wished she was not married and Carlisle was her husband. She could have married him, had a family but because of her broken heart she did not think about that then. As he approach her he tried to lift her arms but it was not possible, it must been all the medicine.
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Post by resident2k4 on May 1, 2009 20:49:06 GMT -5
Carlisle slowly walked even closer and sat right next to her, placing her beautiful child in her arms, as he looked as if he were peacefully and sound asleep. Carlisle didn't mean in any way to hurt her. He told her why he was doing this. "I don't think there is much I can do for you Esme, I can feel your heart beat continue to fade, I just thought before you depart from me and this world, you could have your beautiful son in your arms."
Carlisle smiled some to be strong for Esme. He then sat on the bed next to her and gently cradled her and the child some. He felt and urge to turn her, but knew it was something she would more than likely not want. He was just going to try and cherish the time with her whille he could as she was slowly slipping away, but he at least wanted to take some of the pain away from her.
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Post by Esme Cullen on May 1, 2009 21:07:52 GMT -5
" Thank you..[/b]" Esme said as he held her baby in her arms he looked perfect, almost like he was just sleeping but she knew it was not true. He had passed the day before and it was the reason why she wanted to die herself. she looked at the child then she looked at Carlisle. If ...I felt that my life could be..... something like this I would have never attempted my death. If I had someone care for me like....like you have maybe....I...would have done this to myself....but her..I sit a half dead woman....holding...her dead baby....being lead into death by and angel"[/b] Esme stopped talking with all exertion to speak she her chest was feeling heavy ans she was feeling tired. I am sorry.....you...had...to see....me at my worst[/b] she smiled as a little blood dripped out of the corner of her mouth. I kind man.. should not..have to...see... a weakhearted woman...pass..this way."[/b]
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Post by resident2k4 on May 2, 2009 23:32:49 GMT -5
Carlisle sighed some and gently cradled her some so she could feel his cold body as he knew it would help to take more of the pain away. He wanted to make this is as painless as possible. He never saw her as weak in any way, if anything he felt he owed her alot.
He continuned to hold her, shaking his head some. "That means the world to me Esme, I would have liked that very much. If this is you being at your worst, I can only imagine how much more beautiful you can get when you are at your best, even now so beautiful are, my angel. If you have family I will gladly cover all the arrangements for your fu....ner....al." Carlisle choked up on the word, he could barely get it out. He refused to blame Esme for anything. "I would loved and your child for the rest of your lives Esme, always know that, take that with you into the next life."
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